I’m a single mom pursuing a PhD, how am I going to make all of this happen?
If you follow me on Instagram you’ve seen my journey to becoming a PhD student this fall. It seems like only yesterday I registered to take the GRE and began contacting former professors for letters of recommendation. In my emails I shared with them my career plans and research topics I want to explore at a deeper level. I also traveled around the country visiting campuses that would be our new home for the next 3-4 years. To say my stress and anxiety levels were at an all-time high was an understatement. I’ve always wanted to PhD, but all of a sudden I felt like I had a boulder on my back named doubt.
I knew early on that I wanted to pursue my PhD as a full-time student. That meant leaving the security of my full-time job with a salary and benefits. It also means that I’m uprooting my son from our support system that I depend on . There will be a lot of sacrifice on both of us as I pursue this degree.
Is it worth it?
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.
2 Timothy 1:7
I’ll never forget the day I got the email letting me know that I had been accepted into my #1 choice PhD program. I read the email through a stream of tears and realized that God was giving me the answer to the question I was hesitant to ask. I had my answers. It was time and it was going to happen.
One of the scariest parts of starting a PhD program is figuring out funding. I’ve decided to not take out any student loans so budgeting will be very important. Since we are moving I will have to work hard at creating a new support system. I also have to work on my time management skills because I’ll be transitioning to being a full-time student again. Most importantly, I have to make sure to be as present as I can be with my son during this time. I’ve had numerous conversations with him about this new transition and am praying for his peace of mind.
I’m choosing faith over fear as I embark on this new journey.
What are you tackling with faith today?